Best. moment. of. my. entire. life. ever.
I remember I started crying properly when I got into the little photo room place where they were doing the pictures, but I had butterflies all that morning and in the queue and stuff :3 I was terrified! Like, literally shaking sort of terrified. And then suddenly I was next and I kind of died and the helper person laughed and told me that Dean was very nice so no need to be nervous.
And then Dean looked at me and I held eye contact for like one second before I got really scared again so another helper person had to push me towards him and I was regretting my whole life in that moment I just wanted to leave because he was right there and looking at me and it was terrifying. But he was so nice, he held his arms out all like “Haayyyyy!” but I literally couldn’t reply, but I tried and went like “Hellfmasdkfnknadskfnhewoaioqwkn” attempting to say hello. xD
and then I somehow ended up next to him but then it was awkward because I have really fluffy, curly, hobbity hair so in order to get his arm around my shoulder he had to kind of go through my hair. So in the picture you can sort of see his hand surrounded by fluffle. :3
But the worst awkward moment was when I realised that I was crying onto his t-shirt.I was still shaking so my head was kind of on his chest as people were getting ready to take the picture and I was like OH CRAP I CAN’T CRY ON HIS SHIRT WHAT IF HE SEES so I kind of moved my head away from his body so in the photo it’s a weird angle but he could feel me shaking oh god.
I tried to look vaguely nice for the photo but being me (hella ugly anyway) + crying + shaking = not a nice picture. But I managed to smile! Dean of course looked effortlessly gorgeous as usual <3 It was really hard to keep a full smile on while they were taking the picture because I was in full out crying mode so I look like a complete noob but it’s Dean so I don’t even care.
Afterwards, Dean turned to me and laughed. He laughed. He laughed. He laughed.I MADE DEAN LAUGH. Even if it was just by crying on him. STILL. He said “Awww, are you okay?” and I couldn’t even speak (again) so I kind of half smiled and nodded and walked off.
Straight. into. the. stupid. table.
Goddammit. There’s no way he missed that. D:
So yes, that was my first Dean experience! Anon, I hope you enjoyed my ramble because it was fun to relive it (maybe not the table moment though, because that also really hurt my hip!)